Expectations.....

Expectations……

EXPECTATIONS….whoaaa heavy word…oh yes it has a heavy meaning even in our lives….We tend to expect in every phase of our life…it can be either small or big…

Its always said that unexpected surprises always brings "smiles" and expectations when not fulfilled brings "pain"…its commonly said NO EXPECTATIONS =NO DISAPPOINTMENTS

Expectations generally rise in any kind of relationships…a child will expect more and more love,care and attention from his or her parents ,a lover would expect care and love from his or her lover…

Expectations is a part of human nature…no one can run away from it how much ever we try….Life can be much more simpler and easier when there is no expectations…so should I call “expectations” to be evil???? Certainly yes, according to me because I being a human also suffer because of this…

Expectations also creates boundaries circling our own happiness…in a way I can also say that we depend on some other person for our happiness and hence we EXPECT…

We even expect a lot from our friends..but why?? Okay answer to this can be somewhere because we always expect from our near and dear ones..we always want to share our happiness with our closed one and “friends” make that major share amongst the closed ones…we expect our friends to be beside us during our hard times and etc etc..but is it fulfilled everytime???? The harsh reality and answer is NO….its not their fault …its just because we EXPECT…

From my personal experience, I would like to share when I was in a relation I always expected certain things from my partner and so did he…but when the expectations were not being fulfilled we always landed up in a dispute…but when those expectations were only fulfilled..that used to turn out like a big SURPRISE for me and henceforth bringing a smile on my face… Next,when someone is with some person almost everyday ,they tend to become a part of one’s life and hence starts expects the person to be the way the other person wants and when its not fulfilled,it results to an annoying attitude for the other who expected him or her to change….i remember  Paulo Coelho made a very perfect statement that “Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives but no one knows about his or her”

There is nothing wrong with expectations because in some way it sets goals and targets properly towards their fruition…but the instant we feel the pain over life of not going “my way”..our expectations starts taking clearly an improper  turn..

Its true that YOU DON’T ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU EXPECT…I sometimes ask myself and wonder that wish someone was there to tell me that what expectations will actually ever get me in life?? Being a human I can never stop expecting and I know I have to make myself not vulnerable to getting hurt if they aren’t fulfilled…

All I can say is keep expectations but don’t expect them to be fulfilled always and hence life would be simple and full of joy….

Wizarding World of harry potter..

 Wizarding World of harry potter..

When we hear the word “magic” ..this itself brings an excitement within us…so if we actually get a chance to visualise the perfect world of MAGIC through HARRY POTTER,it automatically imbibes more zeal and “magic” in our lives…

From my personal experience, I can say that I have no words to express the love I bestow for this world of magic…Love,friendship and every relation has been so beautifully potrayed …this particular series has also showed the “differentiation factor” by getting pure bloods and mudbloods…..

Harry,Ron and Hermoine…these three friends set a great image or rather a perfect picture of friendship and humanity infront of us…Magic in the Harry Potter series  is depicted as a natural force that can be used to override the usual laws of nature or which can effectively be used to influence certain normal actions.

“Hogwarts” the school for magic polishes and enhances the skills of magic so as to produce best witches and wizards…The wizarding world is home to many magical creatures and plants, some of which are familiar from folklore and myth. Giants,dragons, Unicorns and Goblins all have roles in the series, while many plants long believed to have magical properties, such as mandrake roots….

I started following this series since my childhood..but suddenly at a certain point I lost interest and the reason I still couldn’t understand…but suddenly a friend of mine nourished the interest back…I can feel every emotion…the sacrifice given by lilly potter in order to save harry and the love of motherhood is so touchy,,it really takes me back…the tears I had shed when “dobby” died…the time when Dumbledore dies…the moment when I see harry,ron and hermoine together…I feel myself so lost and engrossed totally in this wonderful world which gives smile,pain ,happiness and tears…this feeling is so amazing that it can be hardly expressed out through meagre words…

I don’t know much about this world but I know how much I love this ecstatic magical world and always feel that “wish Hogwarts would have actually existed in reality…”

 Its almost three in the morning and  I don’t know what I am trying to write but I am writing this because somewhere down the line I am feeling the pain of this end which is coming soon…yes soon the “good is going to meet the evil” and hence the victory of good over evil is going to bring this series to an end…The boy who lived or the choosen one would always remain in our hearts…We would always cherish in our dreams that one day if we can go to the magical world of HOGWARTS…

Blooming love...

Blooming love……

Life was always perfect but felt something was missing until the time  I fell in love..... but was it perfect or not..this was the question.... though I never paid any mind to that and blindly went ahead with that amazing feeling..it was in class 11..but soon I realised no its not love..it was just the need of filling up the blank spaces in my life…no no it was not love…

So the question arises when did it bloom then?? Okay..so coming to that now..i don’t know when this happened because love doesn’t knock the doors of your heart and then comes in your life…its shameless ..just comes without a call…food and water are the basic requirements of life but love is the important element to survive in life…

Oh we were talking about my love..so I fell in love with this guy who was just so special to my heart… but this started from my early college days…his presence used to shower happiness ….i don’t know what is LOVE…but it was always a wonderous state,deep,tender and rewarding…

He brought a feeling of that sort of a joy in my life which can never be explained through meagre words…my life seemed to be blooming like the most pretty and colourful flower….he made my 20^th b’day so special….he came in my life and made me feel that

 yes I have someone special in my life too…we both walked around holding hands with our fingers locked into each others and talking about the most silliest topics on this earth….he used to always love to see me making some stupid,funny faces…..

The words of love said by him used to be like that soft melodious rhythm which I used to feel like hearing again and again….

I always shared my dreams with him and one was to dance with him in the rain…and yes it was fulfilled…we didn’t dance but we were walking holding hands in that blissfull rain of joy….i miss those kiddish fights which we used to have in coffee shops or anyplace just to prove our point or perspective or who will play angry birds on my tab….i miss those moments ….and then he used to slowly come near to me and say that “shradha, see  everyone is staring at us and passing a weird smile..lolz..” he never knew that those smiles were just because we were special and our innocent fights and joyous laughs made us look more special…J

His early goodmorning messages made my mornings more special ..i used to wake up with a smile and then my day used to come to an end with a goodnight message which used to make me fall asleep with that sense of security in my mind that yes..he is there with me in every twists and turns of my life….

But its always said life is not a fairy tale where things always goes perfect…same happened here…and it  left me with a question that was it my destiny or my smiling fate????

One day he left me….i was not in a state to accept the pain of parting ways….still for his happiness I accepted it with a smile on my face that yes ,my love will always remain the same for him….and I should not lose trust on my love atleast…my feelings will never die..my hopes are always going to remain firm and strong…

Today all of a sudden I received his text at 2:30 saying that “I hate u” ….this reminded me of him telling me once that even there is love in hatredness….so I’l accept that hatredness even…if you hate me I’l be there in your mind and if you love me I’l be there in your heart…all in all I will be satisfied that I’l be with you…

I miss you a lot…n love you till the end…

Shradha…J

was it me or them??

Was it me or them????

Its almost four in the morning and I’m listening to one of my favourite tracks..just stuck to a big question of my life…

I was always a bubbly,down- to -earth,friendly,cheerful and happy go lucky girl but until that day when this unwanted doubt started revolving around me…so, WAS IT ME OR THEM????

Life is always vibrant and joyous for me…I never desired for a perfect life because I believe that take life the way it comes to you… Perfectionism is a dangerous distortion.Nothing is ever enough and nothing is ever good enough. Being patient with ourselves and our lives, and letting where we are and what we have simply been enough,is one of the most important skills to master in the art of achieving happiness..All I always wished was to keep that PERFECT smile on my face…so was it wrong by any chance????

This smile was always perfect when I was around my few but beautiful set of friends n yes among them was one who was someone really more than my special friend ….this was another family of mine..but soon this family was breaking down which really forced me to think about this painful instance ….i could feel that  everyone was going away from one another….but  in life happiness doesn’t last for long…. I should be modest enough and not completely blame “them” because every human being has faults as I mentioned earlier I don’t like to be perfect..so even I’m not flawless…faults are on my part even but still i cant take the initiative  alone to unite this family…every member needs to have that passion of proving that statement again that “unity stands ..divide we fall”

Expectations always kills any relation…so won’t expect anything but yes again power of what you feel should be strong enough for what you desire for…As I read somewhere that we are magnet attracting to all things what we want via the signals we are emitting through our thoughts or feelings…I can always feel that yes one day again we all will be together again and make those POT PARTIES happen once again….

I just want to say that miss you guys a lot…hope to get back together again…J

Tudoo

Luv ya Shradha J

The Morning Saga

I had been an insomniac for the last few days…the stress and uncertainities were just pondering over my head all over the day and  the entire night…the thoughts were dark and scary but   I was unable to reveal them…Anyways,insomnia had veiled me in the darkness and has bounded me in the shackles of fear,uncertainity and mystery…my mind was in a chaotic and utmost confused state… but every dark night is followed by a beautiful morning of brights sunrays giving a warm touch in our lives.....I longed for state of freedom from these absurd and disturbing environment… I was caged in the suffocating thoughts when I felt the need of some fresh air and then, when I was gazing outside my window all I felt were the morning rays falling on my face and comforting me with its sensitivity and giving me hopes of letting me free…. My eyes were veiled with darkness and then suddenly crimson sun rays ever so gently ushered me to a MORNING…A brand new day, another sunrise which was like arrival of new set of thoughts in my mind….. I witnessed several mornings earlier but this one was special as it was leading me to a change of positivity and giving a shape to the thoughts of my life…..The sun nudged my senses and cleansed my impure thoughts leading me towards a life with a clear and non –disturbing path…

This morning made me witness and realise many deep things…

:The sweepers sweeping the streets with a gusto sprinkling water on the roads for making the city look clean and beautiful for the day…but in other way it was done for the incessant people to trample on the chest and their hard work ultimately is overlooked….

The birds chirping away to the glory ….every chirping sound itself had a unique and rhythmic composition which brought a sense of lively tune in an individual’s life…..

The roads were not looking familiar to me as they were all calm and quite…the serenity was seen evolving in every aspect of the surrounding…the dewdrops on the leaves portrayed the natural beauty and sweetness in relation to life…

Overall the smile embraced on my face was marked as a soulful treasure of bringing my heart and mind alike…