Blooming love...

Blooming love……

Life was always perfect but felt something was missing until the time  I fell in love..... but was it perfect or not..this was the question.... though I never paid any mind to that and blindly went ahead with that amazing feeling..it was in class 11..but soon I realised no its not love..it was just the need of filling up the blank spaces in my life…no no it was not love…

So the question arises when did it bloom then?? Okay..so coming to that now..i don’t know when this happened because love doesn’t knock the doors of your heart and then comes in your life…its shameless ..just comes without a call…food and water are the basic requirements of life but love is the important element to survive in life…

Oh we were talking about my love..so I fell in love with this guy who was just so special to my heart… but this started from my early college days…his presence used to shower happiness ….i don’t know what is LOVE…but it was always a wonderous state,deep,tender and rewarding…

He brought a feeling of that sort of a joy in my life which can never be explained through meagre words…my life seemed to be blooming like the most pretty and colourful flower….he made my 20^th b’day so special….he came in my life and made me feel that

 yes I have someone special in my life too…we both walked around holding hands with our fingers locked into each others and talking about the most silliest topics on this earth….he used to always love to see me making some stupid,funny faces…..

The words of love said by him used to be like that soft melodious rhythm which I used to feel like hearing again and again….

I always shared my dreams with him and one was to dance with him in the rain…and yes it was fulfilled…we didn’t dance but we were walking holding hands in that blissfull rain of joy….i miss those kiddish fights which we used to have in coffee shops or anyplace just to prove our point or perspective or who will play angry birds on my tab….i miss those moments ….and then he used to slowly come near to me and say that “shradha, see  everyone is staring at us and passing a weird smile..lolz..” he never knew that those smiles were just because we were special and our innocent fights and joyous laughs made us look more special…J

His early goodmorning messages made my mornings more special ..i used to wake up with a smile and then my day used to come to an end with a goodnight message which used to make me fall asleep with that sense of security in my mind that yes..he is there with me in every twists and turns of my life….

But its always said life is not a fairy tale where things always goes perfect…same happened here…and it  left me with a question that was it my destiny or my smiling fate????

One day he left me….i was not in a state to accept the pain of parting ways….still for his happiness I accepted it with a smile on my face that yes ,my love will always remain the same for him….and I should not lose trust on my love atleast…my feelings will never die..my hopes are always going to remain firm and strong…

Today all of a sudden I received his text at 2:30 saying that “I hate u” ….this reminded me of him telling me once that even there is love in hatredness….so I’l accept that hatredness even…if you hate me I’l be there in your mind and if you love me I’l be there in your heart…all in all I will be satisfied that I’l be with you…

I miss you a lot…n love you till the end…

Shradha…J